Daily Lesson 192 ~
July 11

I have a function here the Divine would have me fill.

It is your Creator’s holy Will that you complete Itself, and that your Self be Its sacred Child, forever pure as the Divine, of Love created and in Love eternally present, extending Love, creating in Its Name, forever One with the Divine and Its perfect Creation.

Yet what can such a Function mean within a world of fear, conflict, and guilt? Therefore you have a function in the world in its own terms. For who can understand a language far beyond their simple grasp?

Forgiveness represents your function here. It is not the Divine’s Creation, for it is the means by which untruth can be undone. And who would pardon Heaven? Yet on Earth you need the means to let illusion go. Creation merely waits for your Return in order to be known again, not to be complete.

Creation cannot even be conceived of in this world, for It has no meaning here. Forgiveness is the closest It can come to Earth. For being of Heaven, Creation has no form at all. Yet the Divine created One Who has the Power to translate into form the wholly Formless. The Holy Spirit forms dreams, but of a kind so close to awakening that the Light of the world already shines in them, and eyes already opening behold the joyful Sights their offerings contain.

Forgiveness gently beholds all things unknown in Heaven, sees them disappear, and leaves the world a clean and unmarked tablet on which the Divine’s Word of Truth and Love can now replace the senseless symbols written there before. Forgiveness is the means by which the fear of death is overcome, because guilt holds no fierce attraction now, and death is gone. Forgiveness lets the body be perceived as what it is: a simple teaching aid to be laid by when its usefulness is done, and only lightly touching those whose learning it aids.

Only forgiveness can relieve the mind of thinking that the body is its home. The mind healed from believing it is a body cannot make mistakes. It cannot think that it will die, nor be the prey of merciless attack. Anger becomes impossible, and where is terror then? What fears could still assail those who have lost the focus of all attack, the core of anguish, and the seat of fear?

Only forgiveness can restore the awareness of the Peace that the Divine extends to Its holy Children. Only forgiveness can persuade the Children to see again their holiness.

With anger gone you will indeed perceive that for the Gift of Sight and the Vision of Divine Essence no sacrifice was asked, and only pain was lifted from a sick and troubled mind, restoring it to health and Happiness and Peace. Is this unwelcome? Is it to be feared? Or is it to be hoped for, met with thanks, and joyously accepted?

We are One and therefore can give up nothing, for we have indeed been given Everything by the Divine forever. Yet do we need forgiveness to remember that this is so. Without its kindly Light we grope in darkness, using judgment to justify our frustration and despair. Our understanding is so limited then that what we think we understand is merely confusion born of error. Without forgiveness we are lost in mists of shifting dreams and fearful thoughts, our eyes shut tight against the Light, and our minds engaged in honoring what is not there.

Who can be born anew in Innocence but them who have forgiven everyone they perceive or think of or imagine? Who could be set free while they entangle anyone in their illusions? Jailers are not free, for they are bound together with their prisoners. They must assure that their prisoners do not escape, and so they spend their time in keeping watch on them. The bars that bind their prisoners become the world in which the jailer lives, along with their prisoners. And it is through their prisoners’ liberation that the way to freedom depends for both of them.

Therefore entangle no one. Release instead of bind, for thus are you made free. The way is simple. Every time you feel a stab of anger, realize you hold a sharp and heavy object above your head. And it will fall or be removed as you choose to condemn or forgive, to be condemned or set free. Thus does each one who seems to tempt you to be offended represent your awakener from the prison house of death. And so you owe them thanks instead of pain.

Be merciful today. The Children of the Divine deserve your mercy. It is they who ask that you accept the Way to Freedom now. Deny them not. Your Creator’s Love for them is the same as Its Love for you. Your function here on Earth is only to forgive them, that you may accept them again as part of your whole Identity. They are as the Divine created them. And you are what they are. Forgive them now all their “transgressions” and errors, and you will see that you are One with them.

 

Corresponding Text Section

 

Chapter 17: The Illusion of the Special Relationship

 

7. The Ego’s and the Holy Spirit’s Atonement

It is impossible to let the past go without relinquishing the special relationship. For the special relationship is an attempt to reenact the past, and change it. Imagined slights, remembered pain, past disappointments, and perceived injustices and deprivations all enter into the special relationship, which becomes a way in which the ego’s wounded “self-esteem” attempts to restore itself. What basis would you have for choosing a special partner without your special version of the past? Every choice of a special partner is made because of something “wrong” in your past to which you cling, and which you believe someone else can help you to make right.

The special relationship attempts to take retribution on the past. In its preoccupation with the past, and its total commitment to it by seeking to remove suffering in the past, the special relationship overlooks the now, in which no memory of past wrongs remains. No special relationship is experienced in the present, for it would serve no purpose there. Shades of the past envelop it, and make it what it is. It has no meaning in the present, and, if it means nothing now, it cannot have any real Meaning at all. How can you change the past except in fantasy? And who can give you what you think the past deprived you of?

The past is nothing. Do not seek to lay the blame for deprivation on it, for the definition of the past is that it is gone, and therefore cannot truly cause anything now. Such is the gift of the present.

You cannot really not let go of what has already gone. It must be, therefore, that you are maintaining the illusion that it has not gone, because you think it serves some purpose that you want fulfilled. And it must also be that you believe this purpose could not be fulfilled in the present, but only in the past.

Do not underestimate the intensity of the ego’s drive for vengeance on the past. The ego aspect of the split mind, when stripped of its pretenses, is completely without constraint, and completely mad. For the ego remembers everything that you have done in the past that offended it, and seeks retribution of you. The fantasies it brings to the special relationships it chooses to enter into, in which to act out its “triumph” of disdain, are fantasies of your undoing. For the ego holds the past personally against its host, and in your release from the past it thinks itself deprived of the vengeance it believes that you so justly deserve.

Yet the ego could not hold you to the past without your alliance in your own undoing. And it is in the special relationship that you are allowing your seeming undoing to be acted out. That this is insane is obvious. But what may be less obvious is that the present is useless to you while you pursue the ego’s goal as its ally in your own undoing.

What can truly be said about the past is that it has passed. Seek not to preserve it in the special relationship, which binds you to it, and which would teach you that awakening is past, and that you must return to the past to find awakening. There is no fantasy that does not contain the dream of retribution for the past, however much this dream is obscured in the fantasy. Would you act out this dream or let it go?

In the special relationship it does not seem to be an acting out of vengeance that you seek. And even when the disdain and the aggression of the ego’s intention break briefly through into your awareness, the illusion of love is not profoundly shaken. But the one thing that the ego never allows to reach your awareness is that the special relationship is the acting out of vengeance on yourself. Yet what else could it be? In seeking the special relationship you are not seeking to find in yourself the Glory that your Creator shares with you. You deny that this Glory is there. So the special relationship becomes your substitute for Glory. And vengeance arising from the guilt of this choice then becomes your substitute for Atonement, and you perceive release from vengeance as your loss.

In place of the ego’s insane notion of atoning or making amends, the Holy Spirit gently offers the Holy Instant. This Course has said that the Holy Spirit must teach through comparisons, and uses opposites to point to Truth. The Holy Instant is the opposite of the ego’s fixed belief that “salvation” is achieved through vengeance for the past. In the Holy Instant it is accepted that the past is gone, and with its passing the guilt and drive for vengeance have been uprooted and have disappeared. In the Holy Instant the Stillness and the Peace of now enfold you with perfect Gentleness. Here everything is gone except the Truth.

For a time you may attempt to bring illusions into the Holy Instant, in order to hinder your full awareness of the complete difference, in all respects, between your experience of Truth and illusion. But you will not attempt this long. In the Holy Instant the Power of the Holy Spirit will prevail, because you joined It. The illusions you bring with you will weaken the experience of the Holy Instant for a while, and will prevent you from keeping the experience in your mind. Yet the Holy Instant is eternal, and your illusions of time will not prevent the Timeless from being what It is, nor you from experiencing It as It is.

What the Divine has given you has been truly given, and will be truly received. For the Divine’s Gifts to you have no reality apart from your receiving Them. Your receiving completes Its Giving. You will receive because it is the Divine’s Will to give. It gave the Holy Instant to Spirit to be given you. And because It gave It it is impossible for you not to receive It. When the Divine willed that Its Children be free, Its Children were free, and will always be so. In the Holy Instant is Its Reminder that Its Children will always be exactly as they were created. And everything the Holy Spirit teaches you is to remind you that you have received what the Divine has given you.

In truth there is nothing you can hold against Reality. All that must be forgiven are the illusions you have held against your sisters and brothers and yourself. The reality of your sisters and brothers, like your own, has no past, and only the unreal can be forgiven. The Divine holds nothing against anyone ever, for It is incapable of illusions of any kind. Release your sisters and brothers from the imprisonment of their illusions, and from your own, by forgiving them for the illusions that you perceive in them. Thus will you learn that you have been forgiven for the illusions you offered them. In the Holy Instant this releasing is done for you in time, to bring to you the true Condition of Heaven.

Remember that you always choose between Truth and illusion, between the real Atonement that would heal, and the ego’s “atoning” that would destroy. The Power of the Divine, and all Its Love, without limit, will support you as you seek only your place in the Plan of Atonement arising from Its Love. Be an ally of the Divine, and not the ego, in seeking how Atonement can come to you. Its Help suffices, for Its Messenger understands how to restore the Realm of Heaven to you, and to help you to place all your investment in awakening in your Relationship with the Divine.

Seek and find Its Message in the Holy Instant, where all illusions are forgiven. From here the miracle extends to bless everyone, and to resolve all problems, be they perceived as great or small, possible or impossible. There is nothing that will not give place to the Divine and to Its Majesty. To join in close Relationship with It is to accept all relationships as the Means to awakening, and not as the means of fantasy. And through their reality to give over all illusions for the Reality of your Relationship with the Divine. Praise be to your Relationship with It, and to no other. The Truth is here and nowhere else. You choose this or nothing.

 

Forgive us our illusions, Creator, and help us accept our true Relationship with You, in which there are no illusions, and where none can ever enter. Our holiness is Yours. What can there be in us that needs forgiveness when Your Holiness is perfect? The dawn of our awakening is simply our willingness to remember Your Forgiveness and Your Love. Let us journey with all our Companions to the Totality of ourselves, our heavenly Home, which is your Will. And let us receive only what You have given, and accept only this into the minds which You created, and which You love. Amen.